had a really good cell meeting today. believe that deep in all of our hearts we all learn something that we learn about dealing with our disappointments. many a times, i feel that my greatest disappointment in life is not with God, man, people, things... but with myself. i am my own love, joy, anger, disappointment...
i have rather high expectations of myself, in conduct, behaviour, dressing, attitude... and if i fail to meet up to them, i get frustrated cos i don't understand why i can't be that way i wanted to be. i try to be nice, but i failed quite badly. :/ i like what pastor joyce mayer shared, each time you try so hard to be someone you are not, you will get more angry at yourself than before. just be yourself and be the best from it. :) haha* makes lots of sense. but then again, i believe that i can be a better me in certain areas.
of cos i love myself. :) i have good self awareness and self esteem... just that i feel i need some upgrading in areas of my life. my daily life is like the courses people attend to improve themselves, cos i meet with lots of different people daily: the good, the nice, the funny, the blur, the crappy, the moody, the quiet, the loud..... so people skills area can surely improved a lot. :) i need to work alot on learning to be CALM at all times. get too spidery easily. argh... practises makes perfect. bare with me.
recently, knew of a few people that didn't do well in their recent papers, including mark. thank God for msn and all those other online chatlines. managed to had a short chat with him and shared a little of cell message with him. i hope he was a little encouraged. could tell that he was very determine to do better for the prelims. jiayou to him. i gues sometimes disappointments are 'good', so that people are more motivated to do something to see a bigger change. all the best to him! :)
was just talking to shiqi as well and short conversations with her are good enough, cos she is always so encouraging. thats why i always say i like her alot alot. :) was sharing with her about being a professional character switcher, having a different character for different situations. this is not about being how many face, but about knowing the right time to be serious and at play. :) yeap! so its good. so lets be professionals in that area. know the time and season.
remind me to stop trying to be a perfectionist that i lose track of other things and tired myself out. i must know my limits. :)
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i can never try to understand things or people that i am not meant to understand. just trying to free up spaces in my brain for other important details.
, be my escape & joy :)
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PROFILE
regina neo.
female. :)
03 december 1985.
child of God.
graduated SP student.
preschool edu student.
zen vision.
acoustic guitar. the tabernacle CD.
more heels.
trendy clothes.
converse high heel shoes.
cool design watches.
hat that suits me.
brazil jacket. :)
formal jacket.
jay zhou's autograph. haha*
